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Wow. Last night I had a very interesting dream. I won't say it was Epic as in the definition, but I would say maybe it was Epic for me. I had a really bad nightmare the night before (Friday night) and was up basically half the night and when I went to try and sleep, it was nightmares. Something about Bryant being missing and no one knowing where he was and us in a massive panic ...
So last night (Saturday), probably more accurately Sunday a.m. (I sleep best from around 5:00 a.m. on which is why I am rarely up before 10:00 a.m.
Okay here goes. In the dream I was presumably "dead". There is no information or surrounding story on how that came to be or when. There is also no actual information in the dream about where I was. It seemed like I was inside at the time as I was in a line of processing. Everyone was very calm and waiting but as usual, I was making a scene. Someone (I won't name) walked by (this person is not dead) and I was like "OMG!! And went to hug him but he just said "Go find your own family"). I wanted information and NOW! A woman (not a face I recognized came up to me and so calmly put out her hand and said "follow me").
I didn't ask what was going on, because I seemed to have a sense of calmness and non-urgency even though I was somehow conflicted and upset on another level. The woman began explaining to me the scenes I was seeing. An older man walked by me and I said "HUH! There should be no old people in heaven!" and she said "That's only how you are seeing things now. It usually take around 4 days or so for you to be able to "see" and accept the more spirit-like enviroment so you are eased into it". Okay, that made sense. Then I said, well how do you do it, is it the same for everyone? And she said "no" and said I'll take you to an active scene. We went to a house and a family was getting out of their car to go inside. Except someone was there explaining that they were no longer "home" in the sense of their physical earthly home. It was a replical. I remember feeling like "Oh No ~ the whole family was killed together!" probably an accident but they did not a memory of the actual 'cause' of death at that time.
That bugged me as well, even though I understood how it would make sense to ease people into it. I said "but what about violent death, like being rape or murder". She took me to a scene of a rape and I was so upset (still calm-like though which was wierd). Then, she took me to see the woman who was surrounded by family and over-joyed. In the Bible there is a scriputre that says something to the effect that the badness of all endured will not even be called to mind when the wonders of God are revealed. This is exactly what it seemed like. My questions continued "Well what about soldiers who die in war and other questions which have plagued me forever ... and she answered them all." Then I asked about famous people. She laughed and said yes, they are around but you'll never see them sitting around talking about their "Glory Days" because they move on. I was puzzled and asked what that meant.
She explained that the human mind is capable of forward progress (yes I know that's a football term and I was football giddy yesterday). Anyway, this particular type of forward progress was the on-going experience that people would experience in this new place, and that it was not possible in imperfect human state. I questioned that too, well how do you help people who are so sick, like with mental illness and stuff? She explained that the chromosomes of every one are brought in line with perfection, so there are no mistakes or anything and that helps to make the person"whole" and "perfect" to how they are supposed to be without taking away who they are. The bad memories or the mental illness, again, is not even in the picture because of this; as well as the calmness that seemed to bring a sense of peace and purpose to everyone (no one floating on clouds, sorry).
The things that seem so important in the physical world were not even an issue so no one felt 'better' than anybody. I then asked about hell. So is there a hell? She said "yes, in hell we torture people until they pray for environmental justice" or something like that but it was a joke. She laughed and said "there is no hell" you either make it here or you don't make it anywhere, just a state of non-existance.
At this point, I was giddy with excitement but one would think my first order of business would be to demand to see Bryant. However, I was so calm, now watching people united with family and also seeing "new ones" arrive and realizing they were dead but seeing their welcomers estatic to see them. Almost like when you are on vacation and miss someone and wish you could share the experience. In this case, even though seeing someone would mean they had died, no one was discussing manner of death or anything like that, but instead, they were all ready to go and begin the "real life". It was so incredible.
Finally, basically satisfied with my answers (I asked a gazillion questions) I asked "but what if you still have a grievance?" and she said "Then you go see the Almighty" and I said "Yeah how long is that wait for that" and she said "He's wide open, all day, no wait". And I was like, "wait, what" and she said, all the desires are filled (another Bible verse). She did not seem irritated at all with my questions and reluctance to believe such a place could be. The thing was, it wasn't strange, like fake. It all made sense and that was part of the calmness. I remember feeling "Man I can't wait til everyone sees this".
I may add more later when I remember specifics but the dream was very detailed and there was a lot of chatter in the dream between me and my Guide. This is generally unsual in dreams to have that much talking without something wierd coming through, you know, like an elephant or other random thing moving on through so you know you're dreaming. The calmness and peace was incredible but it didn't 'numb' anyone or me, just made evereyone more curious and industrious and I guess, the key word, satisfied.
Many of my dreams (except the Epic Ones) have resulted in my waking either crying or otherwise upset, sometimes for days after. But this one, like the Epic Ones, did not do that. In fact, I woke up around 9:00 a.m. and was like NO WAY I am going back! I went back to sleep and kept dreaming until 11:00 a.m. Remember I had A LOT of questions. There was just so much to the dream, so many details. I will have to try and remember them all and write them down immediatelay so I am sure to be updating this soon with more specific details, because I had questions about everything you can possibly imagine.
Hey Bryant, maybe you were my spirit guide in disguise, ya think? Or more likely you were off doing something waiting for me =)
xo xo Mommy
Wow. Last night I had a very interesting dream. I won't say it was Epic as in the definition, but I would say maybe it was Epic for me. I had a really bad nightmare the night before (Friday night) and was up basically half the night and when I went to try and sleep, it was nightmares. Something about Bryant being missing and no one knowing where he was and us in a massive panic ...
So last night (Saturday), probably more accurately Sunday a.m. (I sleep best from around 5:00 a.m. on which is why I am rarely up before 10:00 a.m.
Okay here goes. In the dream I was presumably "dead". There is no information or surrounding story on how that came to be or when. There is also no actual information in the dream about where I was. It seemed like I was inside at the time as I was in a line of processing. Everyone was very calm and waiting but as usual, I was making a scene. Someone (I won't name) walked by (this person is not dead) and I was like "OMG!! And went to hug him but he just said "Go find your own family"). I wanted information and NOW! A woman (not a face I recognized came up to me and so calmly put out her hand and said "follow me").
I didn't ask what was going on, because I seemed to have a sense of calmness and non-urgency even though I was somehow conflicted and upset on another level. The woman began explaining to me the scenes I was seeing. An older man walked by me and I said "HUH! There should be no old people in heaven!" and she said "That's only how you are seeing things now. It usually take around 4 days or so for you to be able to "see" and accept the more spirit-like enviroment so you are eased into it". Okay, that made sense. Then I said, well how do you do it, is it the same for everyone? And she said "no" and said I'll take you to an active scene. We went to a house and a family was getting out of their car to go inside. Except someone was there explaining that they were no longer "home" in the sense of their physical earthly home. It was a replical. I remember feeling like "Oh No ~ the whole family was killed together!" probably an accident but they did not a memory of the actual 'cause' of death at that time.
That bugged me as well, even though I understood how it would make sense to ease people into it. I said "but what about violent death, like being rape or murder". She took me to a scene of a rape and I was so upset (still calm-like though which was wierd). Then, she took me to see the woman who was surrounded by family and over-joyed. In the Bible there is a scriputre that says something to the effect that the badness of all endured will not even be called to mind when the wonders of God are revealed. This is exactly what it seemed like. My questions continued "Well what about soldiers who die in war and other questions which have plagued me forever ... and she answered them all." Then I asked about famous people. She laughed and said yes, they are around but you'll never see them sitting around talking about their "Glory Days" because they move on. I was puzzled and asked what that meant.
She explained that the human mind is capable of forward progress (yes I know that's a football term and I was football giddy yesterday). Anyway, this particular type of forward progress was the on-going experience that people would experience in this new place, and that it was not possible in imperfect human state. I questioned that too, well how do you help people who are so sick, like with mental illness and stuff? She explained that the chromosomes of every one are brought in line with perfection, so there are no mistakes or anything and that helps to make the person"whole" and "perfect" to how they are supposed to be without taking away who they are. The bad memories or the mental illness, again, is not even in the picture because of this; as well as the calmness that seemed to bring a sense of peace and purpose to everyone (no one floating on clouds, sorry).
The things that seem so important in the physical world were not even an issue so no one felt 'better' than anybody. I then asked about hell. So is there a hell? She said "yes, in hell we torture people until they pray for environmental justice" or something like that but it was a joke. She laughed and said "there is no hell" you either make it here or you don't make it anywhere, just a state of non-existance.
At this point, I was giddy with excitement but one would think my first order of business would be to demand to see Bryant. However, I was so calm, now watching people united with family and also seeing "new ones" arrive and realizing they were dead but seeing their welcomers estatic to see them. Almost like when you are on vacation and miss someone and wish you could share the experience. In this case, even though seeing someone would mean they had died, no one was discussing manner of death or anything like that, but instead, they were all ready to go and begin the "real life". It was so incredible.
Finally, basically satisfied with my answers (I asked a gazillion questions) I asked "but what if you still have a grievance?" and she said "Then you go see the Almighty" and I said "Yeah how long is that wait for that" and she said "He's wide open, all day, no wait". And I was like, "wait, what" and she said, all the desires are filled (another Bible verse). She did not seem irritated at all with my questions and reluctance to believe such a place could be. The thing was, it wasn't strange, like fake. It all made sense and that was part of the calmness. I remember feeling "Man I can't wait til everyone sees this".
I may add more later when I remember specifics but the dream was very detailed and there was a lot of chatter in the dream between me and my Guide. This is generally unsual in dreams to have that much talking without something wierd coming through, you know, like an elephant or other random thing moving on through so you know you're dreaming. The calmness and peace was incredible but it didn't 'numb' anyone or me, just made evereyone more curious and industrious and I guess, the key word, satisfied.
Many of my dreams (except the Epic Ones) have resulted in my waking either crying or otherwise upset, sometimes for days after. But this one, like the Epic Ones, did not do that. In fact, I woke up around 9:00 a.m. and was like NO WAY I am going back! I went back to sleep and kept dreaming until 11:00 a.m. Remember I had A LOT of questions. There was just so much to the dream, so many details. I will have to try and remember them all and write them down immediatelay so I am sure to be updating this soon with more specific details, because I had questions about everything you can possibly imagine.
Hey Bryant, maybe you were my spirit guide in disguise, ya think? Or more likely you were off doing something waiting for me =)
xo xo Mommy
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