Another Dream:
So Bryant I had another dream. This one was quite long and involved. I am still wondering about it. It was very real but more like a riddle than my past ones. In the dream, Daddy and I had gone away for awhile and you were staying with someone (I will omit names). Anyway, when we came back, the person said you had died and that it was for the best because you were so tired and everything. Your father seemed to be in agreement with this but for me, I was devastated in the dream. Initially, I thought I would be okay, though, understanding what happened. But as the dream progressed, I became more and more agitated and upset, wishing I could go back in time and undo it. Your father, however, seemed to be able to go forward. I kept searching for answers (praying) though and would not stop asking (prayers) and was crying a lot. Finally, in prayer, I received a 'riddle' and was told to go to a house and "search thoroughly" for a cake. I would not be able to have it though, it would be too large. (this reminds me of the saying "have your cake and eat it too"). I searched the house and found the "cake" which was supposed to represent you. However, I was told in the riddle that I would not be able to have it "yet" and that it was going away for awhile. However, because I had 'searched thoroughly' I would eventually receive the reward. It was a double-edged sword though, which is why I was crying, because I could "see" you but couldn't bring you with me. Someone came in and told us we had to go (daddy was with me) because a great earthquake was coming and the house would go away. However, it was only going away 'temporarily' and although the cake was much too large for me to take with me, it would be safe and eventually I would have it. Leaving that 'house' was the worst thing. I wanted to stay so badly but was forced to leave. And I could see as I left, the house going away in the earthquake. Once I got safely to land (we had to take a boat for some odd reason) - you would think an earthquake would effect everyone ... but anyway, it was a dream after all .... once I got to land again, I was devastated and wanted to go back, just to see the 'cake'. But I knew I could not until whenever, which was not disclosed in the riddle. I was told that although the gift / cake was too large for me to take, in the end, the reward would be similar to the devastation in size - meaning the reward would be large but in a good way, and I would be able to receive it.
So I woke up, very intense dream, very long and I am like drained. I remember in the dream feeling that we failed you, that because we were 'gone away' we were responsible for your death and I felt like I therefore should not go on. Daddy felt differently and it was causing a rift in the relationship.
So there you have it.
Love and Miss you, xo xo,
Mommy
So Bryant I had another dream. This one was quite long and involved. I am still wondering about it. It was very real but more like a riddle than my past ones. In the dream, Daddy and I had gone away for awhile and you were staying with someone (I will omit names). Anyway, when we came back, the person said you had died and that it was for the best because you were so tired and everything. Your father seemed to be in agreement with this but for me, I was devastated in the dream. Initially, I thought I would be okay, though, understanding what happened. But as the dream progressed, I became more and more agitated and upset, wishing I could go back in time and undo it. Your father, however, seemed to be able to go forward. I kept searching for answers (praying) though and would not stop asking (prayers) and was crying a lot. Finally, in prayer, I received a 'riddle' and was told to go to a house and "search thoroughly" for a cake. I would not be able to have it though, it would be too large. (this reminds me of the saying "have your cake and eat it too"). I searched the house and found the "cake" which was supposed to represent you. However, I was told in the riddle that I would not be able to have it "yet" and that it was going away for awhile. However, because I had 'searched thoroughly' I would eventually receive the reward. It was a double-edged sword though, which is why I was crying, because I could "see" you but couldn't bring you with me. Someone came in and told us we had to go (daddy was with me) because a great earthquake was coming and the house would go away. However, it was only going away 'temporarily' and although the cake was much too large for me to take with me, it would be safe and eventually I would have it. Leaving that 'house' was the worst thing. I wanted to stay so badly but was forced to leave. And I could see as I left, the house going away in the earthquake. Once I got safely to land (we had to take a boat for some odd reason) - you would think an earthquake would effect everyone ... but anyway, it was a dream after all .... once I got to land again, I was devastated and wanted to go back, just to see the 'cake'. But I knew I could not until whenever, which was not disclosed in the riddle. I was told that although the gift / cake was too large for me to take, in the end, the reward would be similar to the devastation in size - meaning the reward would be large but in a good way, and I would be able to receive it.
So I woke up, very intense dream, very long and I am like drained. I remember in the dream feeling that we failed you, that because we were 'gone away' we were responsible for your death and I felt like I therefore should not go on. Daddy felt differently and it was causing a rift in the relationship.
So there you have it.
Love and Miss you, xo xo,
Mommy
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