Hey Bryant,
I heard this song the other day, changed the lyrics slightly but it's definitely to you:
I thought I never would forget you
For I thought that I never could
But time has taken all the pains away
Until now, I'm down to hurting,
Once a day.
Once a day, all day long
And once a night
from dusk 'til dawn
The only time,
I wish you weren't gone
Is once a day,
Every day,
All day long.
I'm so glad that I'm not like,
another girl I knew one time
She lost the one she loved,
then slowly lost her mind,
She sat around and cried her life away,
Lucky me,
I'm only crying, once a day.
Once day, All day long
And once a night,
from dusk 'til dawn,
The only time,
I wish you weren't gone,
Is once a day,
Every day,
All day long
Love Mommy
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Tuesday, May 4, 2010
May Day
Hi Bryant,
Well it's the beginning of May. I have come to a new crossroads as far as my dreams are concerned. My sleeping has been much better as of late and that is good. I hate insomnia. Anyway, I was thinking about one of my latest dreams. Of course, you are in it and I am asking you to pull, you know, like when you were in bed or the wheelchair or whatever and we would pull back and forth, sometimes for therapy and sometimes for play. Well in the dream we were doing that and I could feel and touch you.
Then I had another dream, which I really wish was not a dream. In it, you came back and it was like "Bryant's back" and I was so freaking happy and overcome with joy! We were having a huge party and stuff. Those dreams I do not like waking up from :(
So it then occurred to me instead of fighting it, to try and dream about you. Maybe I'll know I'm dreaming, as in some dreams I know I am dreaming and I tell myself "You are only dreaming" and I reply "I know it but I am gonna enjoy it!" and we have fun :))) So I thought, you know, I am without Bryant all day, so that's like 12 hours or so, depending on how late I sleep ! So why not be with Bryant during the other 12 hours? It's a win/win :)
If you can't tell I miss you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. It was gorgeous out the past weekend and you would have loved it. We are going to the beach and I am going to think about you and how much you would have loved it. Because I know you love the beach. I know a lot of things about what you liked and did not like and that's something I am ever grateful for, actually knowing you as a person.
I talk about you a lot, sometimes with people who have not known you. I can't help but brag about you because you are such an incredible light and spirit. Along those lines, I was watching the Stephen Hawking special the other night aout the Universe. He has a device like yours and not suprisingly, the voice sounds very much like the one on your device. So anyway, at one point he was describing the universe and how it looks when time has no power over it - the colors were amazing and the universe is beyond beautiful, far beyond the stuff on earth which is saying a lot. It reminded me of the Bible text that talks about the heavenly creatures (angels and spirit creatures) and Jehovah God's incredible, indescribable glory. It describes him as "the one seated upon the throne ... is in appearance like a jasmine stone and a precious red-colored stone and round about the throne there is a rainbow like an emerald in appearance". Anyway, the picture on the show was like that, showing the glory and brightness of the Universe. I can only imagine now what John saw in Revelation.
Although on the program they refuse to acknowledge any type of "intelligent design" the show ends with Stephen Hawking saying if we can unravel the mystery of the universe we will know "WHY" the universe is here to begin with. I found that rather fascinating because the Bible doesn't actually disagree with the whole Universe stuff they are discovering. In fact, if you read into it, it is amazing how much the writers knew. People probably thought John was on something ~~ and now we find out that his visions probably were glimpses of the Universe. The earlier scriptures have always described God as unable to be viewed by human eyes, which does make sense if the Celestial being is as beautiful as glorious as we can now envision.
Certainly, your being and your spirit were like that, beautiful beyond words or description and I find myself, many times, trying to find the words only to fumble. But last night, that shot of the Universe really made me see the wonders that we have waiting for us to behold. Stephen Hawking used the word "puny" to describe earth and humans and I do believe that word is quite a good one. Yet, with the glory of the heavens and the universe and from what we are told in the scriptures, we are still a part of the whole thing and although "puny" in comparison to the enormousness of the universe, we are still something to God.
The Universe is enormous ~ and they still refuse to see design. The scriptures inform us God has no beginning and no end. Now, looking at the Universe, something once so strange-sounding actually makes sense.
So that's my waxing poetic or philosophical for the evening. It made me think about things on another level and really made things actually seem clearer to me Bryant.
I love you and miss you ~ realizing you are everywhere :)
Love & Hugs,
Mommy
Well it's the beginning of May. I have come to a new crossroads as far as my dreams are concerned. My sleeping has been much better as of late and that is good. I hate insomnia. Anyway, I was thinking about one of my latest dreams. Of course, you are in it and I am asking you to pull, you know, like when you were in bed or the wheelchair or whatever and we would pull back and forth, sometimes for therapy and sometimes for play. Well in the dream we were doing that and I could feel and touch you.
Then I had another dream, which I really wish was not a dream. In it, you came back and it was like "Bryant's back" and I was so freaking happy and overcome with joy! We were having a huge party and stuff. Those dreams I do not like waking up from :(
So it then occurred to me instead of fighting it, to try and dream about you. Maybe I'll know I'm dreaming, as in some dreams I know I am dreaming and I tell myself "You are only dreaming" and I reply "I know it but I am gonna enjoy it!" and we have fun :))) So I thought, you know, I am without Bryant all day, so that's like 12 hours or so, depending on how late I sleep ! So why not be with Bryant during the other 12 hours? It's a win/win :)
If you can't tell I miss you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. It was gorgeous out the past weekend and you would have loved it. We are going to the beach and I am going to think about you and how much you would have loved it. Because I know you love the beach. I know a lot of things about what you liked and did not like and that's something I am ever grateful for, actually knowing you as a person.
I talk about you a lot, sometimes with people who have not known you. I can't help but brag about you because you are such an incredible light and spirit. Along those lines, I was watching the Stephen Hawking special the other night aout the Universe. He has a device like yours and not suprisingly, the voice sounds very much like the one on your device. So anyway, at one point he was describing the universe and how it looks when time has no power over it - the colors were amazing and the universe is beyond beautiful, far beyond the stuff on earth which is saying a lot. It reminded me of the Bible text that talks about the heavenly creatures (angels and spirit creatures) and Jehovah God's incredible, indescribable glory. It describes him as "the one seated upon the throne ... is in appearance like a jasmine stone and a precious red-colored stone and round about the throne there is a rainbow like an emerald in appearance". Anyway, the picture on the show was like that, showing the glory and brightness of the Universe. I can only imagine now what John saw in Revelation.
Although on the program they refuse to acknowledge any type of "intelligent design" the show ends with Stephen Hawking saying if we can unravel the mystery of the universe we will know "WHY" the universe is here to begin with. I found that rather fascinating because the Bible doesn't actually disagree with the whole Universe stuff they are discovering. In fact, if you read into it, it is amazing how much the writers knew. People probably thought John was on something ~~ and now we find out that his visions probably were glimpses of the Universe. The earlier scriptures have always described God as unable to be viewed by human eyes, which does make sense if the Celestial being is as beautiful as glorious as we can now envision.
Certainly, your being and your spirit were like that, beautiful beyond words or description and I find myself, many times, trying to find the words only to fumble. But last night, that shot of the Universe really made me see the wonders that we have waiting for us to behold. Stephen Hawking used the word "puny" to describe earth and humans and I do believe that word is quite a good one. Yet, with the glory of the heavens and the universe and from what we are told in the scriptures, we are still a part of the whole thing and although "puny" in comparison to the enormousness of the universe, we are still something to God.
The Universe is enormous ~ and they still refuse to see design. The scriptures inform us God has no beginning and no end. Now, looking at the Universe, something once so strange-sounding actually makes sense.
So that's my waxing poetic or philosophical for the evening. It made me think about things on another level and really made things actually seem clearer to me Bryant.
I love you and miss you ~ realizing you are everywhere :)
Love & Hugs,
Mommy
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